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Arrested developments

April 4, 2007

Old Fleet Prison

PHILIP
I didn’t post this earlier because I mislaid Tony’s note and it just surfaced.

TONY (written while he was in jail)
“I was arrested Jan 26, 2007 at 10:32am. I was taken to 11 Division and the policemen there treated me really good; mind you, I had to wait 2 hours for a ham and cheese sandwich.

“I spent all day and night trying to sleep on a cold steel bed and froze my ass off. They put me through a Level 3 search, right down to “bend over and spread ’em.”

“Next day I was handcuffed and put in a paddywagon and taken to 14 Division to pick some crooks to take to court with me. There I slept on a cold floor. I waited all day for them to tell me to come back the next day. So right now [January 28th] I’m doing 20 days for not going to court in July last year.

“The hardest time in jail is at night when all sorts of crazy things go through your mind like how to hurt yourself or even kill yourself to try and forget the loneliness.”

Death and menace

March 11, 2007

The jailed bard

TONY (written while he was in jail)
“Forget the loneliness, here in jail, all you hear about is how someone is going to kill the guy who put him in here, and that’s the only thing you hear all day, everyday. I go to the chapel when I can but it still doesn’t help the loneliness or anything else.

“To me, I feel like I’m wasting other people’s time and letting them down. I need to talk to someone so I don’t feel like I’m always going crazy, with all this talk of killing people all around me.

Jail is all about death and I feel like I’m dying myself too.”

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